I get tired sometimes. And it scares me. There are days when I feel like everything I’m making is pointless and I’ve found that those moments are when I go to making production work that I don’t necessarily need to think about. Then again, maybe I’m just feeling this way because I have a cold. Getting sick and having to make suck. But back to jewelry.
The struggles of wanting to do conceptual work always starts in the initial fact that you have to be conceptual. I love being conceptual and thinking about clever ways to communicate with an audience, but I’ve noticed that with each passing day, I’m more focused on “how can I push this even further” regarding the initial conception of concept, that it puts a halt to any effort in even pursuing the spark. When did I become like this? It’s a little heart breaking.
I’ve noticed that the forms I have been crocheting recently remember foraminifera. The short and sweet summary of that is they are amoeboid protists that have shells, many of which are now fossils. Basically these shells known as tests, offered these basic organisms structure and protection. Similar to our endo skeletons and skin. While I’m not sold on the idea of utilizing “nature” as my conceptual basis for what I’m creating, I’m drawn to this idea of the contrasts between simple organic beings and their contrast of “flesh/skin” to humans which are generally labeled as the most intelligent and living organisms.
I’ve been doing quite a bit of research regarding contemporary jewelry and the contradictions that manifest regarding embodiment and the complete rejection or obscuring of the body. It’s like with contemporary jewelry there is no middle ground. Is there a way that something can be on and off the body at the same time and function the same way? It may be a silly question but I’m not sure any more.